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Saturday, February 22, 2014

Madame Bombon, part 3

Madame Bombon and John expressed their love through dancing. They danced and danced, their bodies mingled and collided in the space. They had so much chaos within themselves that they gave birth to a dancing star. Nothing bad could happen when they were dancing. The audience was completely mesmerized by their dazzling presence. Madame Bombon and John had never been happier being so admired and adored. The dance floor became their home. Once again life got in the way. An unexpected change occured. The change is hard thing to accept, it is irreversible, and it means there is no way back. Why would you want to accept change if it represented the end of absolute happiness? John was hit by a car on the way to a flower shop. It was pretty unnecessary accident, avoidable even idiotic. When they asked him how he could not notice the car coming, he simply said: I was looking skyward. Doctors said he could never walk again but what Madame Bombon heard was John could never dance again. She couldn’t stay with him. How could she possibly fit into the hospital life? The smell and whiteness of the place was revolting to her. When she was leaving him she simply said she couldn’t hear the music anymore. John married a nurse who madly fell in love with him. Yet in the darkest nights John dreamt of dancing with Madame Bombon.                
Madame Bombon never fell in love again; she accepted the solitude and her dark and tiny destiny. When Georgie met her, he couldn’t help but notice the grief she carried, the deep sadness on her lips and the craving for music. Georgie didn’t bring back the music she had once lost. He brought a soft lullaby that fed her starving soul. 

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Madame Bombon part 2

Madame Bombon fell in love when the raindrops collided with firefly wings. She knew someone had been watching her at the bar and that it wasn’t just another horny man. The look she felt on her face and body was different. It penetrated her bones and it tickled her muscles. Her fingernails were shaking and she started to sing a little song: Here in the dark, in these final hours. I will lay down my heart... She was waiting for a perfect moment to return his glance. John was his name. He was a never ending poem, the one you’d remember even if you weren’t a poetry lover. Everyone remembered his face, so delicate with Jewish nose and blue eyes that somehow looked deep into you. John’s words and his body knew how to love while his heart was laminated. There was something about Madame Bombon that absolutely contained John’s concentration. The way her eyelashes moved to a certain melody, the way she inhabited the space so smoothly with a tiny bit of aggression and a complete resignation for life outside. There was nothing, nowhere she wanted to explore or be. Madame Bombon was exactly where she was supposed to be. And this sense of belonging somewhere made John ache for her. They could have been happy and had a perfect life together but of course they didn’t. Life is just not like that. 

Friday, February 7, 2014

Madame Bombon



                                                                                                                                                Mornings came through a little lamp
Georgie said it was dangerous to wake up into the purple rain
Sour fountains in her eyes deluded her sense of breathing
She meant nothing at all
She looked skyward

The other night my ghost Georgie told me a story about Madame Bombon. She was an extraordinary and rather peculiar character. People like Madame Bombon were usually born during purple rains and porridge mornings mixed with orange sunset smell. At first Georgie was watching her from the distance, sitting on the tree. The shutters of her windows were wide open. Madame Bombon was an exhibitionist, she’d never been shy or embarrassed of her mainly inappropriate and scandalous actions, which were probably the only decent things she owned, Madame Bombon used to say. She’d always get dressed and undressed in front of the windows with unexpected innocent expression on her face. She couldn’t live without the audience and if there wasn’t one she’d turn down a little bit inside. Madame Bombon avoided people; they made her uncomfortable, tired and bored. She was too impatient an uninterested to listen to the problems or stories other than hers. She knew she was absolutely absorbed in herself and her undesirable destiny but she didn’t mind. Georgie as a ten year old was utterly fascinated by her. The rumours about her being an ex cabaret singer and flapper idol for many people, left him in awe.  
Sometimes when she got marshmallow cravings and had to go to the shop, she’d put on her oversized glasses and hat and went to the streets. Madame Bombon got hysterical and insanely mad when a lovely innocent looking sales assistant offered her a sample of anti-aged cream. Since then Georgie remembered: Do not offer the anti-age creams to any woman unless she asks for it. Poor sales assistant didn’t know how to react on the unexpected rage of Madame Bombon. Georgie just took her hand and asked her politely if they could take a walk?
Madame Bombon loved the smell of lavender and rose petals. She would sprinkle then everywhere she went for a dramatic effect. She claimed that in the past men used to do it. She always slept with her make- up on. ‘You don’t know who could visit you at nights. Even an innocent burglary could turn into a passionate night,’ she used to say. It was hard to tell what were her face features with so many layers of foundation. Despite that she was somehow almost absolutely stunning and peculiarly beautiful. She carried elegance and all the spices of the world. Madame Bombon hated the idea of not wearing make-up when one stayed home. She despised wearing casual clothes, trainers made her whinge and the socks gave her headaches.

Working at the 20s flapper bar was the only source of income she had. She scarcely left that place. The red dimmed lights, cigarette smoke, colognes and perfumes mixed with desire, hope and pleasure was her world. The outside world was killing her. There was too much light and lack of glamour. She knew she was born into the right time. Madame Bombon couldn’t imagine living at different time. She loved to be loved and admired, that was who she was. And then, the flapper time was over, she got older and the worst of the worst: Madame Bombon fell in love! 


Tuesday, February 4, 2014

I'm here to be here

I haven't written a new blog post for some time... I guess I was busy and bored with my life. The carousal of repetition and certain resignation of my undesirable destiny completely consumed me. Moreover my ghosts Georgie, Martha and Olga have started to pay me visits again. I'm so glad they are back because I don't get scared at nights anymore. They had been telling me the most beautiful, sad and lonely stories ever. I keep thinking about their stories and they make me so absent-minded every day that I bump into glass doors, stare through the invisible windows etc...

Work has been really the same, many of the kids have had birthdays, which means many birthday cakes, which means insane amount of calories for me. Unfortunately I can't afford the pool this month again and most probably next month either so I guess I'll have to stop stuffing myself at last. Peace Day (it is the day when kids perform in front of their parents various songs about peace, love and friendship) is finally over but I keep singing that song: Skidamarink a-dink, a-dink, smidamarink a-doo, I love you. I love you in the morning and in the afternoon;I love you in the evening and underneath the moon.

It was so nice to get paid. Having dinners and lunches certainly raised my spirits and made me happier. I even tried to play a pool which was a very enriching experience although I’m really bad at it. I just think the pool table is too big and I found myself climbing on it multiple times just to reach that ball. I truly believe it's not a very well thought out game.



My flatmate finally had an operation and she had to spend her birthday in hospital. We all came to celebrate with her and brought a cake, flowers and little treats. 




I really enjoy walking to the beach through the woods. It’s so beautiful, the big pine trees seem never ending and as you get closer to the beach you can smell the sea. As much as I dislike nature, bugs and flies (apart from fireflies, dragonflies and butterflies), this little piece of heaven absolutely enchanted me.